The 'AG' Ranter

It's me, Hi! I'm the problem it's me... Yep, I myself am a disgrace to myself .  I am back at the auditorium btw, for a competition I took part in. And I disappointed myself big time. So, basically it was like a poem competition, and everyone except me was doing it in Hindi (I was doing it in English) and I am pretty sure one of the judges was not very impressed.  I froze before I even got on stage. Idk what it is, I'm pretty good at communicating my thoughts, but every single time I have to go on stage without my script or any piece of paper to read off of, I just... Fck all of it up, yk?  As of right now, as I listen to another girl's poem, I can just feel the inferiority complex kicking in.  I am in midst of an exam week right now, and this is how it's going so far --- I got 95% on my Hindi paper, and totally fucked up my Math paper. I have an English paper tomorrow and am I planning on studying for that? No. Absolutely not. Also, something reall

Writers Block... A big bad writers block is what I was experiencing for... Just about 3 whole months.  Life gets so hectic when a new semester starts. Everything gets so messy. There's stress, a whole bunch of it. Stress about the new grade your getting in. About the new people you'll meet. About the new teachers you'll have. About... Every little thing. I remember sometime in May that I started feeling really bad about myself, and that feeling kept clinging on to me till the end of June. I am much better now, but when I look back at those times, all I can recall is how dark everything felt.  I'm writing from an auditorium full of very noisy children by the way, hence the poor writing.  Anyways, I went to a doctor's appointment last Monday. As I sat there in complete silence in the waiting room for a little over 30 minutes, I started thinking about... A great deal of things.  Most prominently, I thought about how time changes things. It feels like just y